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Monday, December 13th, 2004
3:53 am	3:53 am This is it! My last and final over night shift ever! I barely made it through the night tonight....I'm utterly exhausted! School is wearing on me! So is work. I start my new job next Wed. I'm excited. I will miss it here though. It's four am and I have three hours left to go, three bathrooms to clean, four floors to mop, dishes to put away, and a bunch of laundry to fold all before I can go to my Love's house and climb into bed! Today starts the henoius week of finals!I just have to make it through this week! Current Mood: drained Current Music: WHOM 94.9's X MAS SONGS! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
2:02 pm	Everything is wonderful when you are in love. Bad hair day's, snow storms, school work, and just plain stress! None of it matters when your in love. Everything is just perfect when you are in love....   Today is a messy winter day here in Maine. It started snowing in time for me to miss my appointment at 9:30am with my proffessor, or maybe that was just me pressing snooze a few more times than I should of. My bed felt so warm and snuggely with Waldo by my side... it was impossible for me to awake. Not too much new has happend since my last entry... still making my way through school as the end of semester quickly approaches... I am bad.... very bad... I haven't gone to my last couple english classes and today I was all set to go when i drove into my Beau's driveway instead! Hmmmmm.....  I can't wait for this semster to be over! Have I said that before? I still am unsure of what next semester will entail.... but that's ok. It will all work out as it's suppossed too! My cell phone was shut off again this morning because I couldn't make the payment this month... It'll be back on, on Friday for those who need to reach me in the mean time call the house! ;) Well I supposse I should take this time I have here in the computer lab to get some school work done.... until the next time....... Current Mood: of my love : ) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
5:38 pm	a.. click... clank... clanking... As usual I am left with time in the USM Computer LAB where instead of working on my homework my mind wanders of to unknown places.... This is my dilemma with school. I've never really like it! Yes, that's right.... I should say that I do like very much the classes of which I feel prepare me for my future but these lame classes such as Lingustics 210E I just can't deal with much longer. This last month has been wonderful for me, with a couple stresses here and there but just common everyday stresses such as financial issues, not enough time to do things around the house for my Dad, missing my Beau while he was away, a conflict with my Mom, and school. We all face thses kinds of troubles on a day to day basis.... but I have really been able to overcome them with much more grace than ever before. My new Partner has really taught me a lot, and I don't think he even knows it.... because it's not like he's come right out and said " well this is what you should do " it's just the way I feel when I am around him. I come from an enviorment where school is put first before anything else, and event hough I have alway's known that there is a bigger picture outside of school I've never truly explored it... I've just alway's thought that unti I graduate from Undergrade I just simply can't ponder the idea's of working in my field, owning my own business, having time for the one's I Love, getting married and starting a family of my own... and just lving life to the fullest.... right now I am not living my life to the fullest I am slaving myself in godawful classes such as the one I just walked out of instead of using my time more efficently.... will I have three more credits at the end of the semester? I hope to hell, but will I have been one step closer to my dreams and goals.... hmmmm... not really..... Everyone has their own theorie's and belief's about how to successfully live your life, but the fact is THIS is my life I need to find out for my own.... I don't have to live by others rules... I can make them up as I go, as they feel natrual for me..... I've also had a great intuition probably passed down by my mother, and even when I[ve been in bad situations in the past and things I've set out for just didn't wor out... inthe back of my soul somewhere I've alway's known... I just didn't know what if actually felt like to be SURE that what I was feeling,what I was doing, and the descions I was making were correct.... I also have a clearer understanding of myself and who I am..... where I want to be, and what I need to do inorder to get there.... I can and will do this on my own, but I have to say having someone like I do know will  only make my journey more complete. For the first time I don't need someone.... I'm healed.... I don't know if it was just time I needed, or coming across the right one and the right point in my life. It has been a short couple of months but in these months I've only felt more reassured about my life and where I am taking it..... There is absolutely nothing else I have left to do on my own, sure everyday I have thinbgs to do on my own, but what I am trying to say is I am ready... I am ready for whatever is instore for me...and I am happy.... Truly Happy... Wow.... what a rant! I've had a lot on my mind appearently.... LOL This looks as if it were an enrty from deb's journal! HAHAHA just teasing Deb, though you do write a lot...... On a different note I start my new job on December the 22nd! I'm so excited for many reasons.... I also was able to see Anne and Rick last night! That was great! I miss Anne so much her honesty, Love, freindship, and even her narrowmindedness sometime ;) lol. Anna Maria my sweet sister.... I miss you... I want to heal you from all your pain, I want to tell you it will all be ok, bevause I know it will! Your EX ASS is a jerk off for doing what he did to you... after all the love and support you gave him while he was in the middle east..... but in another light I am glad he saved you from a mediocre love that he could have given to you.... because you are free know to live your life accordingly and to someday find True Happiness and Love rather than replacing the present with what your hopes and dreams are for the future.... RyAn! I searched for you at DQ! My tastebuds are dancing after eating a yummy chicken strips basket! The only thing that could have made them better was your cheer through the drive through! LOL Well I am impatiently wating for my love to get home from work so I can go and be with him! I guess in the mean time I will work on this dreaded ESSAY......\ SAS Current Mood: enthralled (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
12:39 pm	Thunder only happens when it rains...   Dancing around aimlously to Fleetwood Mac's Rumor's...... I've got to be at work in less than two hours and I haven't even brought myself to the idea of even showering! Today is my lovely double shift were I work all through the night with no sleep! Monday is a big day for I have an interview at 3pm! Wish me Luck! I hope this works out... I'm tired of living a lie... I need a change.... I also need for this week to be over! It needs to be next Sunday morning where I am surrounded by warm fuzzie blanket's and feelings of love and sweet kisses...  can't stand this any longer! I've decided these feelings are unatural to miss someone so much, I'm just not normal.... I think perhaps it's because I know I can't have them right know that my mind is playing tricks on me and my heart is conisitantly dancing at 90 miles an hour, and I gather it will continue too until the great arrival ... that seems just so far away....... I guess I will pull myself together to get ready to go into work...... I love my work...... I love you......     SAS   Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Fleetwood Mac (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
4:52 pm	Blasphomey!!!   Prior to my SOC 210 Crit Thinking class I would have a lot of bullshit to rant about due to the current election results that just occured yesterday.... however I've decided to keep to myself all of the ideosyncratic Ambigous emotions I am feeling and leave it at that unstatedly so! " Fuck the Sheep"  * love it Deb*  Baaahhhhh!!!!       Hmmmm... yup I guess that's it .... Current Mood: cranky Current Music: I wish the Computer Lab was playing that song called ..... (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
5:07 pm	My Secret Love Affair.... So... I'm growing fonder of the USM Computer Lab. It seems as though everytime I come here I either meet very intresting people or run into very interesting people from my past. I'm walking briskly as usual to my usual computer ( DELL D xp ) when I hear my name shouted out in a whisper... and whom to my suprise but Ryan Wilson! One of the funniest guy's I'm obliged to know! So we reminissed for five minutes or so anfd it turns out that he too like myself is living back at home with the folks ;) Smart we are for that! But it was real nice to see his smiley face again! Vision's of Gleason's Public Speaking class are now haunting me... Oh Lord! I've decided my Soc Prof is a Bitcho...through and through.. no reason just generally...I can't wait until this semester is over so I can start all over again...I believe I say that every semester. ( * Acrylic Nails Suck for Typing * ) I've decided to talk to my Boss tomorrow and see if he can help me find a Bridge home closer to Auburn to work for... I can't afford the commute so much as I can't afford the job all together! I Love it so much, but there are many more oppurtunities and benifits out there for me... I guess I just wish I didn't have to do the dirty work like tweeking my resume and going through a series of interviews and blah blah blah... I used to be so much more motivated.. now I've turned into this school skipping, too lazy to clean my act up DiVa! Although all excuses aside I have had a nasty cold for about a week now! I miss you Anna... honestly... This isn't a habitual pattern like it is when I have a boyfriend... I have time for you.... I'll make time for you... but Damn girl you need to get your self some wheels! hehe... I wish I was in a giant Queen sized bed wathing the Alamo and.... and.... uuuggggghhhh..... I'm getting to risky here huh? But I'm gunna say it.... I can't even say that I could be falling in Love * for the sake of what ever love means * because what I used to define love as is nothing close to this indescribable feeling that has taken over me Am I dreaming.... perhaps... I'll awake soon drowning underneath a pleathera of mid terms, term papers, assesment's and portfolio's.... I need a stage, a pair of Tap shoe's and a picture of Gene Kelley to hold closely... actually a HUGE Coffee will do the trick or shall I say Fallacie! * All I do is think of you too * Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Roger's and Hammerstein medoly's playing in my head..... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 21st, 2004
6:02 pm	Ha Ha Ha... look at me studying my ass off! Just sitting in the library writing in my dorky LJ! So, my SOC Prof. is being a HUGE BITCHO!!!!! I want to pull out my hair! I spent 7 freakin hours working on this Portfolio project, and I did a pretty good damn job I'd say * even decorated it with cutsie little stickers * but apparntly the cutsie little stickers were not just enough because even though it was one day late.... she won't even freak'n look at it! Yes... I cried in the SAS BUG after I went and bought myself migrain Meds and Russell Stovers creamy milk chocolates..... I have a HUGE HTY EXAM in the next hour... but my ADHD keeps me from studying.... all I can think of is my portfolio project... I guess I am lossing my ability to manage all my responsibulities.... I have to do something about it because I've worked to hard to let my studies suffer like this.... maybe I'll go part time next semester.... hmmmm... all I know is that I need to spend more time studying... less time driving... more time with my Beau*....less time day dreaming and more time in the GYM! Oh how Ironic... my senior superlative partner * Matt Roberge is sitting at the computer across from me.... he looks good... much better then in High school.... yellow is definetly his color... hmmmm.... I wonder if he is still the " Best Shoulder To Lean On" I could use a nice shoulder.... hmmmm.. but I can wait for 9:30 ;) Most Definetly..... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: just the annoying little clicks from the 50 key boards (Comment on this)
Monday, October 18th, 2004
11:30 pm	Wonderful happiness eludes me.... as I listen to Sara J bitch about Vickie's, stressing over my SOC Portfolio, Exam's, and no sleep in the last 32 hours.... but it's ok, everything is wonderful! I just wish I could just tell the world all my newly found emotions, and explain why I wear this ridicoulus smile on my face all day long... Current Mood: grateful Current Music: ** The Kangamangas ** (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
12:14 am	Fich!      I'm a terrible terrible person....forgetting Claudi's birthday, not being able to met Anna on Sunday am, not calling deb back because I am too lazy to listen to all my voicemails to get to that particular one, putting of homework, spending money I don't have, and oh the list goes on.... but isn't that what constitutes our lives to begin with...all the tiny imperfections that make us who we are.... I am listening to a great new song by Jamie Collum.... " what a difference a day made... 24 litte hours... both the sun and the fowers, where  there used to be rain.....my yesterday was blue dear.....today I am a part of you dear..... my lonely nights are threw dear....since you said you were mine...... Oh...what a difference a day made.... and that difference is you....." xoxoxox all aside I had a great week...though way to busy then one needs to be.... I 'll manage...you know the amazing thing is that a lot of things that have been occuring in my life lately have been very unexpected and I didn't think I would be ready to take them on... but that's the beauty of it.... you can't be ready.... because being ready is a mere illusion simply because when you say .. "ok I am redy for this and this in my life now....." its really just a need or maybe a desire rather.... I don't know whatever it may be... it's just funny how things work out I guess its what I am trying to say... there's so much to say, so many thoughts * happy ones * and yet I am unable to put it into words.... which is very unlike me... I live for words...and yet in these instances I have been in lately...I am left speechless, sleepless, yet content, better more happy.... but I was happy before too you see...and that's what makes me feel good about the desicions I am making and facing.... that's what makes one ready....when you are comfortable with yourself no matter what path you are forced to take, whether it be an award winning romance or an oppurtunity for change..... Walking down to the waters edge where Ive been before...... Making my way through an open door, and I'm ready...ready for more.... I was broken down... hungary for your love .... Fearful with no way to feed it ..... I must be back to studying..... * G'nigt   Current Mood: grateful Current Music: Twenty Something.... Jamie Collum (Comment on this)
Monday, September 27th, 2004
10:02 pm	* wishing more then ever I had more free time * floating amungst the plethera of tiny, perfectly articulate bubbles and the safe warm feeling of the water surronding my body... I figured it all out. There is something incredibly comforting and exhilitaring about bubble baths...such a simple necessity however very rewarding.... I've alway's been able to think the best in the bathroom... lol, more percisely the tub that is... and today was a perfect oppurtunity for that.... I'm happy.... I like how things are going... Current Mood: flirty Current Music: SpICe GiRlS * lol* (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
11:59 pm	Good n Plenty's As I stare Starry eyed into the night..I travel to worlds unknown ....Flying through outerspace dodging shooting stars Dancing through the ozone... Twinkle Twinkle Moonlight love...come fly to me sweet morning dove... I'm flying through the sky so high... Oh how I wish you were by my side....Some sweet day far far away...My Liebe will come caress my soul... Stronger then Bronze, Silver, and Gold... This day will come when dreams are nice and ready.... as sweetly as a box of good and plenty's.               Current Mood: content Current Music: my new mixed cd ;) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
12:18 am	I am already burnt out... this semester is kicking my ass. I spoke with Traci today which made my day all the much better... There's something about walking around a super Wal * Mart with Traci on the other side of my cell phone, makes me feel like she's still on her top bunk oblivious to what's going on from underneath her..... LOL * Once again... many regrets Trace* ( remember Antonio) lol now I am sitting here laughing all by myself infront of this computer uncontrolably... I am sure Anna banana is sitting in her room amungts her luggage awating her arrival in CALI tomorrow afternoon * I am so happy for you honey and I wish you the best.... just don't move out there yet... I'm not ready for that! hehe.... We had a nice weekend even though I am still super BiTcHo with all these raging hormonal changes I am going through.... AHHHHH.... it seems to be getting better though.... lol, although I really wouldn't mind if I could keep the new set of boobs I got since changing my birthcontrol.... the fat on my ass can dissappear along with all the anger and tears... but the rest can stay! Ok..... it's time to get back to work........ Make your way through mirrored halls...see the boys with all their dolls A pretty maze like candied streets...you feel a thrill when your eye's meet... Current Mood: busy Current Music: U2 (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 16th, 2004
11:10 pm	tinker bell Do you ever try so hard to keep a smile on your face even in the most uncomfortable of times and it fails...... Today I was driving the usual long ass stretch to school on I95 when I got pulled over for the fifth time in 9 months! Unfortunately I didn't get the luxury of being cuffed to the back seat of a very handsome man's vehicle ( in a uniform if I may add) but I did however leave with a little special something... how about a 210.00 TICKET! HELL YEAH! So, I called up Officer Poulin and asked him the deal... my license will be suspended but I can however drive back and forth to work and school and I can drive the children at work around as well.... which is pretty damn good considering the circumstances... Oh yes almost 900$ I have spent on speeding and traffic violations just this year! I need some help... I don't know what... I already took DEfensive driving in July to take away points... I know... I'll buy a bike and .... well no that won't work either... hmmmm.... So needless to say irresponsible me skipped two classes out of 3 today... due to smudged masscara and traffic delay's. I met up with Richie at Borders and we went and had lunch at Panera's... he took me to this spot around Back Bay in Portland, and we sat there and read...it was nice, it was absolutely beautiful out today and I enjoyed our time together..it made up for the shitty start to my day...although for some reason talking to him today felt a little forced strangly...maybe it's because of this whole dilemma of supervisors and employee's hanging out thing... though I don't think so because it's strictly just a mutual friend thing.... I believe... at least it has to be... hmmmmm..... I did however go to my SOC class.... fun time as usual... then I had a mini breakdown on the phone with my Mom when she called and pointed out all the mistakes I have made so nicely for me... I love my Mom, she is truly my best friend and My angel, I am not sure where I would be today if I didn't have her by my side however...sometimes she has a way of putting things out that are not so pretty..... so I called Anne, and she felt so far away it made me sad so I called Anna! Whom else... and we went shopping for her boyfriend Ben's arrival back from IRAQ...I am so happy for her he comes home in less than a week... I could only imagine the emotions she must be feeling.... Today as I was driving down the pike listening to a little BONO wishing he was in my back seat with the "EDGE" encouraging me like that commercial that's out right now with the guy walking down the street and the band follow's him around all day saying.... " Glen! Glen GLen Glen!" yeah in my dreams... but anyway's I was pondering if the emotions I have been feeling lately are partly due to my being lonley perhaps... in the basement all alone at night with my thoughts and my dolphin* hehe* or partly to do with being back home. I think it's being home.... I love it here, but it's not my own.. you know... I miss having my apartment... it's so hard to be in my Dad's house following his rules, cleaning the dishes his way.. and having diner made for me..... I miss it so much.... but I know I am in no state to be off on my own.... none of my friends at this point would be ready to move in together, and really what's the sense of me too? hmmmm... well I am just keeping up poor Mrs. Adam's by keeping this light on so long... and Waldo is calling..... Current Mood: weird Current Music: Mrs. A is sleeping in the dungeon with me tonigh.... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
9:39 pm	And I won't cry for yesterday there's an ordinary world somehow I have to find....   And as I try to make my way to the ordinary world.... I will learn to survive......     After my tv blowing up, cell phone being dissconnected and having to pay 400.$ to get a new one, my Laptop getting a deadly virus, getting a C on my first paper for SWARTZ, floods, spiders, and working 68 hours this weekend..... I am ready to have a better week... I didn't lose it... nope I didn't... I didn't even lose my sanity after talking to Billy for the first time in 6 months.... I actually feel better..... I think that being able to hear from him, and know that he is happy helped me be at peace with our break up. As crazy as it may seem... I never really dealt with it like I needed too..... it's strange kinda because I never missed being  in love with him.... I missed him, and I miss being "in love" but I only missed our friendship.... I know it's because I hold onto my past so tightly too... and it dawned on me... I need to just let things go.... I never thought of it that way... until last night when I was talking with Richie.... he told me that I just got to learn to let things go*in a nice way of course * However, he is totally right.... and so all day I have been thinking of that... and there are so many things in my life that I just haven't been able to let go and I think if I did.... I might not be carrying around so much baggage and stress... I think it's a learning process...something that everyone faces at some point or another in their life.... So... enough of Samantha Philosophy... let's discuss my boring weekend....     work, drive, sleep, wake , work, drive, sleep, wake, work, work, work, work, drive, study, study, sleep..... Well, that's that.... Now I must be off to study Freud............. what an exciting night!   Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Black Light Feet TECHNOIR (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 9th, 2004
12:10 pm	Blah blah blah ....... A very wet and blarry day in Portland Maine. My fiest class was cancelled this morning as I rushed on the turnpike through the tretourus aftermath of the Hurricane....only to find that Proffessor Swartz was sick... seeing as how I live an hour a way from class and my next class is in three hours... a phone call would have been much obliged.... but here I am sitting in the campus center writing in my LJ like the cool girl I am.... although if I must say so myself if it wasn't for my cool new leopard print umbrella I may be in trouble.... I am assuming that what I am about to write will be a bunch of rambeling.... I worked last night until 11pm and that was rather exciting.... my job alway's is. What's more exciting is that I came to the conclusion that I am pretty much going to be a big dork this semester.... I couldn't even hang out with any of my friends even if I wanted too..... all I di is work, school, work , achool, with an exception of Saturday nights however I picked up two doubles for this weekend so I will be working from 7am until 11pm on Fri - Sat, and 2pm-7am on Sunday.... Monday I may go to Sebago Lake for the Staff appreciation.... * we get paid to have a BBQ* I can't pass up food..... but I will be swamped with homework and exhaustion so I am trying to take this unplanned break from my scheduele and relax a little.... ( see ramble ramble.... ) I will be meeting Noah after my second class.... we will go searching for a new cell phone..so yes once again my number will change.... but once it does I will post it so I don't loose to many friends in the process..... speaking of friends.... Sara finally calls today... with more Drama though I am one to talk if it weren't for drama in my life I would not survive..... however... poor thing is so upset with troubles with her Mom, and I wish I could help.... I alway's feel that no matter what I ever have for advice for her it isn't good enough * now I am being selfish* but I just love her, and want to be able to help... and I hate it when I can't fix things.... but I did make her laugh when I remarked that it was a good thing we weren't in orlando anyhow or we would prbably be dead considering the circumstances of the storms down there and all..... * giggle* I am though very glad that I have stayed here in Maine at USM to finish my degree..... I really love it here more and more every day.... I go through my phases.... well I could go on and on with this crazy nonesuch but I am probably beginning to piss of my peir who are waiting for a computer to actually study with.... To be Continued....... Current Mood: blah Current Music: I wish there was music in the computer lab... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
12:31 am	Summary of my day * Lingustic's with Proffessor Dana * This Class fucking sucks.... I can't believe it cost 200 bucks... to doodle and draw, daydream and gaze as I shiver next to the window in a mysterious haze... the cars on the street are rushing by, but when I look at the clock the time starts to lie ... for it's only quater of an hour and a half left to go and if the smart ass behind me speaks again I'm going to explode, combust and or BLOW!!! ABCDEFG what the hell does that mean to me??? I know how to read, I know how to write and Proffessor Dana is a hideous sight! Current Mood: amused Current Music: Dido (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
12:38 am	Like alway's throughout the day I am surrounded by random thoughts yet when I am face to face with my LJ my mind goes blank..... How about a quote.... " We will walk with our own feet; We will work with our hands; We will speak our own minds."  ~~ Ralph Waldo Emerson So, how about that... " Somewhere far from everyone.. my head is in the sun" Ok... so today I slept after an obnoxiously long 18 hour shift at work... the drive home was hell and I nearly drove off the rode twice...( but I sang "Shake your Ass" over and over on repeat and that helped quite a bit)  but I didn't. Slept until 3 or so, when Anna called me inviting me for a picnic... she's so fucking cute! But I had a planned lobsta dinna with the family on this fine labor day Monday... that was cute... Spent the rest of the night studying * awwww* and or talking with Richie... I enjoy talking to him very much.....    I am kinda annoyed with Sara... ;( She stood us up again this weekend... didn't even call... Couldn't believe Noah did though... God I missed him until he shared way too many intimate details about my/our past with the whole Free Street Tavern on Saturday night.... I wanted to bitch slap him! lol No... I love him, I am thrilled he is back in my life... like I previously mentioned I am not good at goodbyes.... unless is has something to do with a farewell to a dillusional boy or something.... Yeah so Noah, Anna and I went to Una's for Stargazer's... then Justin's friends band was playing at Free Street and we meet up with Richie and Rob there... good times..... Have I mentioned how proud I am of myself... for being such an independent women... I thank Kelly Clarkson for the motivation however I think my last relationship helped me realize some things.... most importantly ... to get to know someone before you commit yourself to them, however some other good things as well... I don't get lonely... well not insanely lonely... do I dream of having someone special .... sure..... Hell Yeah I do.... and you know I alway's thought it was me... that I get sick of my boyfriends... that I try to make up for the loss of my Father from the time whe I was 12 until now... ( Oprah is evil ) that I need therapy for what Travis Dyer did to me in highschool.... but I don't ( well ok maybe for that, but that alone ) I am normal, it is amazing how normal I have realized I am... I just haven't found the right thing yet.... and I am in no rush... if it comes... ok, I just hope I am ready for it...Blah .. blah.. what the hell am I talking about... I have no idea.... I've got classes all day tomorrow... and a lunch date with Noah;) I need my beauty sleep... * and a lot of it *   Current Mood: giddy Current Music: " Scott's Rockin CD for Samantha" (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
12:26 am	I HATE Goodbyes...     I dispize goodbyes....even if they are to ten year olds.... Too many people come in and out of our lives and we truly take advantage of all we have to offer each other... My new goal is to try to learn as much as I can from all those I encounter...I was moved by the intelligence of one of the little girls at work this evening and now I am going through one of my personal contemplative debates... but it is far too late to make sense of it now...     Today was a nice day ; ) Despite the nasty voicemail I recieved...but that's water off my back at this point. I really enjoy the VERY long drives I have to and from work... I really do... it's a hole hour where I am alone with my thoughts, and my music! I got to talk with Anne today on the way to work...God I love her. I miss her so much, and I just want her to be happy... I worry about her... I worry too much...    Lately I have been missing Chicago a lot... I have all these crazy idea's of moving out there after I graduate in a couple years... * just a random though* But there is something exhilirating about the thought of spending my life in that city... For it is that city that I discovered myself within...it only seems right... I love Maine... ( never thought I'd say that with such passion ) however, I've never visioned myself actually staying here and setteling down here...though I need not to worry about such things now.....It's just that I feel I have much more to offer, and recieve than what is here... and plus I left a part of my soul on South Plymouth Court, and the Red line. God, I'd give anything to be eating the yummy crepe's at Clarks right now... I could use a crepe... I'm hungary now... I need to go to bed ..... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Jack Jhonson (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 3rd, 2004
12:32 am	The Uncanny.... Another long yet eventful day! I had class from 11:45am until 9:40pm this evening, but fortunate for me I ran into Noah/Randy * whatever his name is now lol * and Brad! We had lunch at Portland Public Market and that was real nice to hang out with them again. I think we will all hang out this weekend... Anna owe's me a Martini! Extra Dry! I met up with both Sara and Anna at OTB for Margarita's after class... God it feels good to be hanging out with the girls regurlarly! I have been so happy lately... things are really falling into place! See everyone.. I don't need a boy... well not right now anyway's... someday... maybe... if I can ever find one worthy enough! LoL! I really enjoyed my History class on the politic's of the Holocuast.. I've been longing to study the details and I am thrilled the class is offered this semester...I am considering the possibuility of minoring in HTY. Have I lost my mind? Already with this Double SOC/SCI major that may be tough and it may mean I spend the rest of my life in school. Oh well... it makes me happy, and I enjoy it very much... so far much more this semester probably because I am focused and my mind is concentrating on the right things and I have a lot of positive influences in my life..... Well I think I am headed to bed with Waldo now..... puuurrrrr..... Cheers! * please no more night terror's of richie lol (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
10:13 pm	Through these tiny basement windows in my father's cellar, the moon is surronding me with it's light... it's rather romantic.... Classes started today! Woohoo! I have a feeling it is going to be a tough semester...the toughest class probably being my Sex, Gender, and Sexuality class which to my suprise has nothing to do with sex at all... however, I am still fascinated by it... I ran into Simon and John today at the campus center... that was fun... alway's fun bitching about Vinny T's ;) Have I mentioned that it feels really good being single.... well I love it... SuCcEsS... I met my Mom for diner tonight at Pizza Hut in Saco... 3 hours later I feel like shit... hmmmmm.... I am beat! Have to do some stuff in town tomorrow before I go into work so I best be off and dreaming... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: FRANK FM! (Comment on this)